Today

Today I received an email from my friends wife that was sent last night... to know her pain and anguish. I can not fathom her thoughts and feelings when she found his dead body....

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This is Jayson's obituary that will appear in the Salt Lake Tribune tomorrow Friday Feb. 20th.
I am so saddened by his loss,
my heart is broken
I know he is now in peace
He has left us all with such a loving legacy and I am glad to have been a part of his life


Jayson Lynn Miller
(Died February 13, 2009)

Jayson Lynn Miller left this earth Feb. 13th to find his final rest and peace. He was and is a beloved son, brother, husband, and friend. The loss of such a beautiful soul will be felt forever.
Throughout our lives we are sent precious souls meant to share our journey (Flavia). Jayson is a precious soul that touched so many lives from family, friends, coworkers, and everyone he came into contact with. We are all so incredibly grateful to have been a part of his coffee drinking, music loving, computer programming, beach loving journey here on earth.
He is survived by his wife Gwen Miller, his Father and Mother Kent and Donna Miller, his sister and brother-in-law Sheena and Chris Muir, his two sweet kittens Fred & Holly, as well as countless family and friends that have endless love for him.
"When you are sorrowful, look again in your heart and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.” (Kahlil Gibran)
A Memorial Service will be held for Jayson, Saturday. Feb. 21st, 3:00 pm at Jenkins-Soffe South Valley, 1007 W. South Jordan Parkway (10600 So.). A visitation for family and friends will be held from 2-3 pm prior to the Memorial Service. All are welcome to come and celebrate in the life that we all shared with Jayson. In lieu of flowers, donations would be appreciated in order to cover the cost of expenses.



I keep feeling like there is something I should have or could have done to save him. I was listening to my iPod today and there was a song that just caught me and made me think of the pain Jayson must have been feeling. I have been crying all day.

She loves him more he loves her more
Seems like they aint never let each other go
Laughin and kissin it's a match made in heaven
Behind the rings on their fingers imprints the ink deep in the inner
That has stained their souls' together now
Stained 'soul mates' forever now
Seems like they've made it to the other side
Where the grass is greener and the sky is always blue
And it goes on forever and forever but there is only room for two
Deep at night I'm awakened from my dreams
Next door yelling cries mercy she is begging please
'Don't end my life your all I need and darlin I will never leave never leave'
And then she prayed on her knees
She said

'Save him, save him from the hand that beats me on'
'Save him, save him from the hand that beats you on'

Dark clouds cover her paradise
She covers her eyes and hides
Behind enemy lines
And she walks through the night with her child in her arms She's thrown back hostaged
You see twenty years ago
When she was just ten years old
Lost in imagination
She was left alone
And Paps had nothing to let his anger on
Oh he beat her cold
She used to prey on her knees
She said

Deep at night I'm awakened from my dreams
Next door
Yellin cries mercy she's beggin please - "get up get up"
He brings her to her feet and smacks her down till she falls to the ground
Oh and over and over again
He brings her to her feet till she can no longer stand
Oh and still the beating never ends
Oh on and on and on it goes
Until he brings out a gun
And says to her
"Stop crying and bring me my son"

She cries harder and harder
He cries harder and harder
She says "Baby please don't don't do this"
Oh two shots to her chest
And a blow to his own head
She quickly loses breath
And blood rushes to their bed
And baby cries he cries his eyes out

She loves him more he loves her more
Seems like they ain't never let each other go
Laughin and kissin
It's a match made in heaven